This Moment Here (Speechless)

I know I have to give an update on how things are going in the “romantic” sector of my life, but for the first time in a very long time I feel speechless. For so long I have looked for someone that can challenege me, make me laugh, that I think is completely adorable and someone I could see myself spending time with on a regualar basis. I started to think that there was no such thing (at least here in Florida) and that my standards for a significant other had gotten out of control. I was in the process of shutting down my Match.com account and I was just going to do the dating thing the old fashioned way – slow and uneventful.

Last Tuesday was a shock to my romantic life (http://sincerelyyoursda.blogspot.com/2009/02/tame-whipper.html). Chris and I had wonderful chemistry over the several hour phone conversations we had but there was still that lingering question. What would it be like when we got face to face? Would the chemistry be there? I had learned from experience that just because you have a connection through conversation does not always mean that you will have a physical chemistry.

Yesterday was the third day in a row that we saw each other. Friday was dinner. Sat was rock climbing (in which I am becoming addicted to), errand shopping (he’s a horrible mall walker) and lots of snuggle time. Sunday we went to the gym and played basketball, got lunch, walked the nature trails at UNF and then ended it with me cooking dinner and him coming over. And with that short explanation, I am leaving out the most wonderful details of his sweetness, thoughtfulness and humor that makes me nuts about him.

The chemistry, both physical and emotional, is remarkable. Other then Maz (which we all knew how toxic he was for me), it’s been quite sometime since I have felt feelings of self worth and happiness. (It’s crazy that I even throw Maz’s name in with self worth and happiness because all that ever resulted in was games.)

I don’t know how Chris and I will turn out. I know how I hope that we turn out but things are still so early to determine where this “relationship” is going to go. All I know is that Chris has reassured me that my standards for someone I want to spend the rest of my life with are not unrealistic and that there are people out there the posses the qualities that I find so attractive in a man.

If I would be giving advice to any single girl who is tired of being single but can’t find someone to be happy with, it would defiantly be the fact that there are so many wrong ones out there. Trusting your gut in realizing that the guy who doesn’t make you feel all the things above is just not right for you. It’s hard, especially going on as many dates that I have, and you start to think that maybe you have set your expectations too high. That’s not the case….and as we are always learning in life, I have defiantly learned this lesson.

Thanks everyone for the prayers and thoughts. I know that it has probably been tough for you guys to hear me talk about multiple guys (not every guy being the ideal situation), the mistakes I continued to make the relentless analyzing of others actions. But….please don’t stop the thoughts and prayers! Chris is good for me, who I am and what I want to strive to be…..and when things are this good, all you can do is wish for a happy ending.